Better late then never right?🤷♀️
This is something that is COMPELTELY out of my comfort zone. I know right me, scared to tell y'all something.. sounds new right but this is a part of my life that I have never really been to "proud" of I guess you could say.. but it was a phase of my life that made me who I am today, so here it goes.
A couple of years ago I was at an extremely LOW point in my life. I would drink daily, saw nothing wrong with it at all, and I would always have a smile on my face no matter what was going on. There are VERY few people who actually knew anything at all about my life and I wanted to keep it that way. I felt that if I told people how I felt or what was going on that they would feel bad for me and I hate when people look at me with ANY kind of pity. So I didn't. I would go out, be my happy go merry self, and put on a front for EVERYONE that it was all okay and it was all going to be okay no matter what happened. That is what I knew that is the life that I created.. I would tell myself to fake it till you make it and maybe one day I would actually be happy with a great life. Well thats not the case at all. You have to let yourself go through the motions. All I was doing for years is numbing the pain and finding ways to avoid actually dealing with everything that was going on around me.
FAST FORWARD to today:
I am not going out every day of the week, I do not do things to please others even if they are things I do not want to do, I take my health physically and mentally very serious and work on strengthening them every single day! So much that it is now my FULL TIME gig♀️
NO nothing about this transition was easy, nothing about coming to terms with the truth that I was avoiding everything and numbing everything by going out and drinking 7 days a week to "solve my problems" was easy to confront and fix. But I will say one thing about the past 4 years.. sitting here now thinking about where I am and how far I have come..
️THEY WERE DAMN WORTH IT️
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