Now i realize,
I always take a step forward eventhough i know i would fall everytime with some kind of disappointment, some kind of hurt, some kind of distress, in hope that at sometime it can change like before.
I am always accepting things which I didn't eve do, leaving the thing called ' SELF RESPECT 'which I thought that i wont leave it even in my deathbed.
I am always being like sponge, engulfing all the pain , which I couldn't utter a word out and pouring out that stupid fake smile which is useless.
I have always been like a library shelf , where people come and place what they are exhausted off and takes away what they want, and i will be just holding everything.
All will be thinking about their own self like what they wanna do in their life next , what they wanna do to be better, what they can do to groom up themselves etc.
But I will be like " Oh , i said like this to her before 2 weeks, that's wrong , its my mistake" ; " No No , that wasn't his mistake , even i should understand the situation on opposite side" ; " What can i do to make them more happier?". I am the perfect house owner with others thought not even asking them a penny as rent.
Then i realize, i was losing myself everyday thinking that i am making others happy, i was losing myself everyday thinking that i was wrong, i was losing myself everyday by sacrificing each and every bit of my soul in sale.
And at last my master brain got enlightened and took a decision and whispered me " BE FOR YOU TOO" .And as a good student i too agreed.
But then again I realized,
Whatever i do , whatever decision i make, i end up always giving something to others.....may b love, care , strength, support, whatever.....
And that's the holy thing u can do , give as much you can
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