I can tell you the very day it all went downhill. It was 4th of July 2015. My mindset shifted and I became a slave to sugar once again. Sugar is a real addiction. It creates a monster inside you making you crave... NEED more. .
I ate an entire Jilly’s cupcake and didn’t stop there.. I ate myself sick and never looked back. You can see in my feed the downward spiral of me trying to get back on track, but failing each time. The cupcake was even documented in a photo (that you can see when you scroll ⬇️) and it was the combination of comments from my overcommitted blogging & this sugar rush that ultimately made me shut down my fitness blog and healthy lifestyle.
Over the last few years, I’ve reminisced far too many times on “that year I was in good shape and ran a fitness blog” and begged myself to get back in the game, but even when I was in it mentally and physically - when I would mess up - I would give up. .
I’ve started fresh again this week. And the biggest shift I’m making is my mindset. I’m having dessert. I’m eating pizza. I’m walking the dogs a little extra. I’m giving myself grace. .
I’m sick of being miserable. I’m sick of watching my kids run around and not feeling like running with them. I’m sick of being held back by my weight. I’m making small, realistic changes to get back to “me” and where I want to be. .
Where can I go from here? Up. I’ve hit rock bottom and I’m floating back to the top little by little. Will I ever blog again? Hopefully someday. Will I ever eat pizza or drink wine again? You can guarantee it. But will I do it in moderation and when I screw up, give myself some grace? Yes, please. .
And today I’m going to love me for me and who I am today. Because while I know I’m overweight & overwhelmed by the anxiety it gives me to acknowledge that... I’m also who I’m meant to be at this very moment in time. And I’m determined to see what my potential is and where I can be in a week, month, year, decade! ❤️
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