When I was growing up, I felt defective, misunderstood, and terribly alone.
I was convinced God dropped me into the wrong family, and I spent many nights praying to one day be surrounded by a tribe of like-minded people who actually "got" me.
Ironically, I had no plans to ever marry or have children.
I was convinced marriage was a lifelong prison sentence, and that I had absolutely nothing to offer as a potential parent.
My role models were less than stellar, and I believed, in the long run, I'd end up doing do more harm than good.
Well, the Universe had other plans... (and I can hear giggling as I write this). 😇
Although I still struggle with the concept of marriage, I've experienced enormous success as a parent.
I was so terrified of screwing up, but I always did my best to show up.
I didn't do this perfectly (who does?) but I encouraged my kids to think for themselves and to BE themselves.
In turn, they continue to teach me more about life, love, and perseverance than any outside source ever could.
The Universe had my back from the beginning and ultimately responded to the desperate longings of my heart.
Although this life doesn't always offer a storybook ending, there are always blessings (and usually right in front of of us, if we're willing to look.)
Yes, I've had my share of heartbreak and, yes, I still have lessons to learn but, overall, it's been quite a successful journey...
and here are some messages from my daughters to prove it.
#blessed #theluckyones #outofthedarkness #healingjourneys #proudmama #togetherwerise - 9 hours ago