For most of my time dancing I lived what I felt was a “double life”.
I wrote a post (last week I believe) where I talked about how dancing gave me a lot of free time and financial resources that allowed me to pursue a spiritual and personal growth path. I went to native american sweat lodges, learned different personal growth teachings, got into yoga and meditation, got a Life Coach, did therapy, travelled, developed deep relationships with plant medicines, went to retreats and festivals, and spent time with a lot of pretty rad , creative, inspiring people.
I would go strip every weekend to make the money that allowed me to do all the things, and then I would go back to these spiritual, personal growth spaces and feel like a total fake.
I thought the two worlds couldn’t exist together. I thought I couldn’t be fully aligned on my “spiritual” or personal growth path if I was dancing. And it honestly killed me. Because there really wasn’t anything I loved more than this creative, spiritual, unconventional path I’ve been following all these years. And stripping allowed me to have this life more than any “normal” job could have.
So instead of being ashamed of my work and feeling stuck in it, I decided to just own it and use it to empower my life.
And a huge part of that was completely dismantling the ideas that I had about s3xual!ty and s3x work.
I started viewing it as sacred, spiritual, and powerful work.
I started owning my power as a conscious woman doing this work.
I started learning how to honor and be a Dakini for the men I danced for.
I started understanding the spiritual aspect of sexual!ty.
I started understanding the spiritual idea of non-duality, letting go of the ideas of “right and wrong”, “good and bad”, “light and dark”, “God and the rest of the world”. I started viewing this entire existence as if it were all purposeful and in perfect harmony.
I started trusting that this had become my path for a reason and that I was going to have complete faith that this was to be my gift that I would give back to the world.
I embraced the notion that stripping was in and of itself a spiritual path. (MORE IN THE COMMENTS!) - 8 days ago