I take my job of #Motherhood Very Seriously. A job I really didn't want, I tried to get my tubes tied at 19 & twice again after that but I was told I had to wait until I was 35 yrs old since it wasn't a medical emergency or need. God had other plans obviously & I had my 1st sun 4 days before my 35th birthday. God is good.
I truly struggled with the realization that mommy's life HAD to change now for my babies, whereas daddy still had a CHOICE. Chose WHEN to sleep, come home, hang out with friends, when to play, EVERYTHING. Basically Came & Went as he pleased & I Resented that I had NO CHOICE at ALL, cuz I ALWAYS understood THEY COME 1ST. .
No matter how I FELT, how many hrs I worked, or how tired I was, I made sure my babies got my TIME so they Knew they are Loved & are PRIORITY #1 . They've always been well taken care of, way to often by MYSELF, but I know how important these early years ARE for mental & spiritual development. .
Kids Absorb everything they see & hear anyway but after learning how most spiritual & energy blocks are a result of feelings never correctly processed in our youth & knowing trauma is passed through DNA, I need to make sure his subconscious is not tainted by his environment.
I tried to shield him from what I felt like growing up in a single parent home, always wondering WHY my father wasn't there.
Now I'm watching the similar signs of abandonment issues: tantrums getting worse, more defiance looking for negative attention, more clingy & whiny & the Worst is the pleading for him to go with me when I go to work, "don't leave me mommy." .
I sacrificed my own health & happiness for YEARS trying to avoid this but apparently coming home every night & putting family b4 the streets/EGO was too much to ask 4.
So in error I gave up on the relationship side of Co-parenting yrs ago & decided I only wanted DADDY. Abandoned by my own father I knew kids just want the TIME & I wanted for my kids what I missed out on as a child.
I Created them, Birthed Them, will always Nurture & Love them. I am their Protector, Provider, Teacher, I am the loyal face that has ALWAYS been there. I take my job of Motherhood Very Seriously. We are ONE. - 38 minutes ago