Some random thoughts to share, as most of mine are.
First, I have been going out on a limb and posting more of my writing (meaning, the writing that’s not a rambling instagram post.) Partially to encourage myself to continue doing it, but also for feedback and gauging interest. I’ve received some really nice encouragement and it’s definitely motivation I need to keep doing it. It’s such a silly pipe dream to hopefully publish a book, and preferably before I’m 40 (I’m 38, for those keeping up.). But I really want to do it. For me, my kids, my friends and everyone who has supported me. So we’ll see.
In other randomness, I’ve yet again been reminded not to let the poison of others make my life toxic. A comment was flung my way today, or rather a snarky, rude unsolicited remark from a very unpleasant person that in the past would have reduced me to tears. Probably would have even caused me to drink later to forget about how mean it truly was. Words can hurt. Words can be wrapped in barbed wire or be soft as a kitten. They may not be tangible, but they do leave a mark. I was taken aback by these venomous words for a moment and then I stopped myself. This person’s decision to be truly virulent is on them. Giving weight to their words gives them more power than they deserve. The people pleaser in me wanted to fix it; and wanted to prove to them that I deserve different, but my energy has better places to be.
I’m probably giving it more weight than it even deserves by writing about it, but that’s two-fold. One, writing is healing for me, and two, I might be getting better at filtering out the stuff that would weigh me down, but I might still be walking around with it in my pocket sometimes.
Progress takes time. Just like writing a book does.
At least for me. It’s adding to the chapters that counts and developing your main character. .
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