In bumping into old faces I find myself reminiscing:
I remember a brief time in my life when my world revolved around football, training for football, and naturally, intermittent binge drinking.
My identity was wrapped up in this lifestyle for a long time, so it was struggling to see it slip into its ending.
I could be wrong, but I can imagine that many of my teammates felt a similar void that soon followed the end of their own chapter:
Hollow, lost, broken... Boy, what a sob story-- it definitely felt like one.
Fast track a decade later, I hardly care about the last 'proper' training session that I've had, or much for the game itself, but occasionally I do miss the contact.
Physically, I miss hurling my body at someone with the intent to hurt or dominate them... It wasn't personal, it was an expression of strength and power that naturally occurs in sport-- and It was fun, because it was organized.
But, it should serve as an example that we all have the capacity to enjoy violence at times... It may sound mean spirited, or harsh, or evil, but it's a reality, and an integral part to sport, and the human experience.
It is important practice to bring that level of aggression into whatever craft you are honing or pursuing-- Constructively of course.
This primal energy in sport was reinforced and bound in community-- a band of broheem's cohesively smashing into whoever was outside of the circle. #union
Close to a decade later, one coach's words ring true for me:
"As invested as you are, football will only take up such a small portion of your life"
Though it feels like another life altogether, the values in camaraderie that have come about as a result have embedded themselves into the foundations of who I am today.
For that, It is a slice of time that I will always cherish because of the people that understand the lifestyle that was cultivated in competition together.
Photo 1. The GOLDEN years
Photo 2. My 15 minutes of fame
Photo 3. Where it all started, and the life long acceptance that people will always butcher the spelling or pronounciation of my last name. - 13 hours ago