I questioned my whole existence
these last few days.
I questioned everything I have learned,
everything I have overcome and
everything I stand for.
I questioned my reason for living,
my relationships and my own
I felt betrayed by God and the
I felt unworthy and not good enough.
I contemplated life and all the good
Because I received news that
my ex-husband's wedding is being
planned with my brother's ex-wife.
The woman who broke-up our family,
tormented, abused and
de-famed us will have a sweet
wedding with the man she fell for
the moment she saw him (while
"happily married" to my brother).
I felt like God allowed evil
to thrive and be a victor.
Like how unfair for the divine to grant
her that which was mine.
I allowed myself to feel all of the
emotions, until nothing was left
I fully embraced and welcomed the
shit storm because I was ready to
face it, and for the storm or more like
a tornado to pass through me.
The realization I've had and
a part of me knew this already
that you always get what you are
an energetic match for.
She cannot possibly put out hate, lies, envy, theft, rumors and deception, while expecting to receive love, loyalty, honesty, acceptance, abundance and committment.
This is Karma at its finest.
We learned the lessons that we needed
to learn while she was married to my
brother and now she's onto the next family.
Sometimes people that we become
a match for surface suppressed
emotions and trauma from childhood
that need to be processed and
I think without the torment and
abuse I would never have been able
to process and release the shit
that I have released.
So as much as my human brain
wants to wish the groom and
bride to be, a doomed ending,
I wish them well because there are
lessons that both of them need to
learn in this marriage and from each other.
I forgive you!
#Coach - 4 minutes ago