I used to care, let's face it we all want to be loved... But what I've learned in the 6 years since my #diagnosis and the 40 plus years on the planet is that people are going to judge, misjudge and misunderstand me. I can't let that upset or define me otherwise I will live a life of misery.
Hell, even I did it... Before my diagnosis when I would see this type of behavior from someone I thought "man that person is strange, or annoying" so I get it. I would dismiss #roadrage or 'obsessive behavior' as a personality flaw and label them "#unapproachable " or "#arrogant ". My first response was also to block them.
I know that most people think that I'm #dramatic or annoying but the worst part is for many years I didn't even know I was doing it. Heated arguments about #politics and #religion in my clear #delusional state just seemed 'normal' to me. I couldn't understand why people just didn't 'see it' ... My way.
Road rage was just "who I was" after all I'm the smartest person in the room, "why are you so slow and stupid" "Get out of the fast lane moron" because going 85 mph in a 75 mph zone isn't fast enough for me. I need to go 90mph and my time is far more valuable than yours (dick)! I still couldn't figure out why I was difficult to love. Now armed with more #knowledge I've learned to be more #patient , #openminded and #compassionate . I no longer "block" people, I simply "scroll by" something I disagree with. I know it is an argument I won't win and now I've learned I don't need to.
So the answer always is: They blocked me... #Stigma created that. I never had the courage to explain my 'crazy' but now ... I'm 44 years old and I could 'give a damn' what people think of me. It is liberating actually and honestly I know how important it is to #advocate for those who suffer from this ugly #illness but stigma stops them from explaining it to you.
I used to contemplate #suicide to avoid it but #God showed me I have value and purpose. So next time you see a friend or loved one post something strange on their #Facebook give them compassion and for at least a moment consider the possibility that they too may be hiding a mental illness from you. - 30 minutes ago