Hi, guys! Today was my last therapy session before the summer vacation. This time it was really hard! My therapist told me some stuff that I intentionally or subconsciously, who knows, avoid to think about. I felt 10 years old again, insecure and full of issues. I work all my life to overcome this insecurity and to be put back at that place was fucking painful.
I have few options how to proceed for the summer but right now I feel so expose and so hurt that I even started considering not to continue therapy anymore.
I know, talking about those things is in my best interest. But even now, 5 hours later, I can’t shake it off. The words are ringing in my head.
And I wonder, do we subconsciously sabotage ourselves? Is it possible that I am my greatest enemy? So many questions. I feel like I am going to explode. - 3 hours ago