Shopping is one of my biggest weaknesses. Combine that with broodiness, hormones and @dsfsocial sales and it turns out I’m pretty much uncontrollable!
After I posted on my stories that Bea and I were baby shopping the other day a few people told me it was bad luck to do so this early. Everyone has their opinion.
I’m actually a pretty superstitious person myself. I didn’t do a pregnancy test until I was 5 days late for fear of jinxing it or bursting the bubble of hope. But I have my reasons for shopping... To be honest I don’t really care what others think, and it’s not that I feel I need to justify myself but just in case others out there are judging or feeling judged, I’m sharing my point of view.
I know I keep saying it, but this pregnancy is still pretty hard to believe. The only time it actually feels real is whilst in the doctor’s office with a belly covered in gel, watching undeniable evidence wriggle about on the screen. Baby things make it tangible.
My nausea, headaches and tiredness (which I try to be thankful for, but it’s tough!) still come in huge waves meaning that many days I’m forced to take it very slow for fear of not having the energy to look after Bea in the afternoon. Apparently that should ease off soon, but the past few weeks have been far from productive. Sitting around sipping water, gorging on dry crackers and ginger sweets whilst online shopping makes me feel like I’ve achieved something. Planning ahead and being prepared also helps me to relax.
And if the reason I shouldn’t shop is in case the unthinkable were to happen... well I personally don’t think my devastation would be at all lessened by the fact that I didn’t have some things set aside in a room reserved for her. I think I’d want something to hold, but that’s just me.
Whilst waiting to bring home Bea nesting was all I could really do, but I felt like a fraud stepping into baby shops. However, I’ve come to realise that whatever stage of motherhood you’re at, you should embrace those highs so you can cope with the lows, and do it your way. After all, you’re the one who will be living with the consequences, no one else! - 2 hours ago