I was 3/4 of the way through coloring this piece when I decided that I hated it. I was frustrated with how messy the “H” turned out, my vision for the first “d” didn’t quite play out right, and I couldn’t even decide what colors to do for the second “D”. I closed my sketchbook and counted it a loss. I’d just add it to the pile of art that would forever go unfinished. But then I realized that all of the reasons I didn’t want to post it, were the exact same reasons why I SHOULD. Let me explain.
I started this piece for this week’s #homwork from @homsweethom. Guest teacher @laurenronquillo challenged us to letter a condition that we’re working through, and give transparency a shot.
ADHD brains are very difficult brains to live in and they are so much more than fidgeting and being easily distracted. ADHD can cause anxiety and depression along with a host of other issues. I have a big love/hate relationship with my ADHD. It fuels my creativity but I also haven’t done laundry in a month.🤷🏼♀️ I still don’t fully accept it. I’m angry that I have it a lot of the time. But my ADHD brain is the only brain I get, so I’m learning how to make it work with me and not against me.
In the end, this piece ended up being a stunning metaphor for this wonderful brain of mine. I’m messy, all over the place, and if I had a penny for every project I let go unfinished...🤦🏼♀️ So I’m posting it in all its unfinished glory in hopes of being a little more transparent. I’m grateful to live in an age where transparency is praised and not shamed. We all gotta start lifting each other up.
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