I’ve spent the last several months working on things with myself. Taking the time to just be alone, quiet, and try to gain back some of the things in my life I’d neglected. It wasn’t particularly easy, but in the past few weeks I’ve felt a peace in my life that I’m not sure I’ve ever really felt before, at least that I remember.
I recently increased my medication because I felt I might have been losing some control over how attuned to reality I was being. Changing medications can be a grueling experience. It hasn’t been easy being more aware, present, and attentive to the world around me. However, it has been good.
I’ve been grappling with that concept a lot in the past few months. Good and easy. My conclusion is those aren’t related, and they don’t always exist together. Changing meds isn’t easy, but it’s good. And I think that’s how my life is at this point, too. It’s not easy, but it’s good.
Thank you to everyone that’s been there with me through my very internalized first few months of the year. I’m sorry I’ve annoyed you with long rants, too many book recommendations, and asking any question that floats into my mind. I hope your opinion of our relationship is what I’ve been exploring for a while now; it might not be easy, but it’s good.
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