4/19/19 (Photo of @thecameronboyce by @stormshoots for @houseofsolomag 🏾) 8:41 A.M.
Mood: momentarily neutral.
Thoughts: Last night, I tuned in to @shanboody ’s live Q&A on here while I was feeling really down. Unfortunately, I’m PMS-ing, and as a person with BPD (I mention the millionth time), PMS makes the symptoms a thousand times worse for a while. So blessed. Anyway, I tried sending her a question. It said something like this:
“How do you continue to accept your body as it changes? (Ex: Like when gaining or losing weight)” So, obviously, I was feeling very body conscious last night. I didn’t get to stick around long enough to hear her answer, so, @shanboody , if you’d like to give me a short run down of what you said (if you saw my question, and it’s fine if you didn’t!), feel free! But, I just had some thoughts for my own question today that I thought I’d share.
So, here’s the thing: In the age we live in right now, we aren’t always going to be in a place where it’s easy to accept ourselves. You CAN look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you love every single part of yourself every day, and that would be nice. However, there’ll still be times where it’s nearly impossible to believe that. So, here’s what I say to do: damage control. Capitalize on the good of any moment.
So, you’re feeling good about your body? Capitalize on that and wear something that shows it off or compliments it! Totally bask in it. Or, are you feeling like you have the worst body in the world (like I did last night)? Capitalize on self-care. It doesn’t help me to force myself to think that my body’s perfect when I feel shitty about it, so I have to jump into “damage control”, or things that’ll make me feel better while I feel shitty. I get clean, watch funny videos, or look at pictures of family members that always make me smile. You find ways to cope moment-to-moment.
Forcing myself to do damage control actions when I’m feeling bad is one of the HARDEST things I have to do regularly. My real temptation is to continue to self-trigger and make myself feel even worse for being me. - 1 hour ago