CW: mention of suicidal ideation and self harm
I like routine, and I like organisation. Where I can, I make appointments with my psychologist for the same day, same time, every week. But I still need to put it into my phone calendar, or else I’ll forget. I do the same with my GP, making appointments for the same day, same time, each week/fortnight/month (yes, I’ve been seeing my GP consistently since exacerbation of all my mental illnesses earlier in the year. The more support, the easier the fight can be.)
I add in any other appointments into my calendar; chiro, physio, optometrist, dentist, gyno. Yoga and Pilates lessons also get added. Events and birthdays. Holidays. Then everything gets copied into my diary.
I make to do lists, both daily and weekly lists. I have them in the notes section of my phone. I also copy important things to do into my diary.
I’ve often forgotten appointments, or events. I book things on a whim, and realise I’ve got clashing events. Despite having everything written on my phone calendar and in my diary. I didn’t have a diary this year, and just used my phone for everything. I wasn’t on top of things. I was drowning in self loathing, depression, anxiety, BPD, suicidal ideation, thoughts and actions of self harm. I didn’t care.
I’m hoping some of those will lessen next year. But I’ll still be taking it day by day. Crossing one thing off of my to do lists. Keeping up with appointments. Continuing yoga lessons. Not having any clashing events. Enjoying my life. - 4 hours ago