November 7th, 2018 at 09:24 AM, it is part of my series "HOSTAGE" where I explore my 5 year battle with Depression. •
Since May is #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth , I decided to help raise awareness for something that most of us have battled with in silence.
I am turning 22 years old today but there were times when I thought I would never make it to this point in my life... Fortunately I have, Thanks to God, Family and the Arts. •
January - March 2016 I had the worst breakdown of my life and only a handful of people got to know about it. A great friend who became my Family helped build me back up piece by piece. Sadly I hit a few rough patches last year and I slipped back into that dark place. It took a lot of hard work, tears, and prayers but I successfully brought myself back to where I am today, to a good place. • • QUIETUDE • •
Many times, after a battle with ugly feelings and thoughts, I would sit still and envy "normal" people if they were around either in my head or in real life. "Why do they get to have normal lives and I don't?" or "Why am I the only one who feels like this?" and a lot more questions ran through my mind as I sat there in complete quietude. •
For most people battling depression, its pure agony. To suffer in silence not by choice but by force, with no one to talk to who will understand, no one who cares and certainly no one who won't judge.
As a result, most of us suffer alone, a deep darkness swallowing us whole from the inside. Your innermost self brutally battered and left with inoperable damage. This trauma never goes away, etching itself on you and only resurfaces during hard times. •
For one month starting on October 20th, 2018, I started exploring my 5 year battle with depression. I came to realize that this darkness is within me, it took over my persona. To some degree it won, I am not me without it and it is not, without me. I am a hostage and with every negative occurrence, it draws closer revealing itself, with my likeness but a different identity. • • #ChrisDennisRosenbergPhotography #ilove #travels #instalive #instalife #europe #instapassport #mytravelgram #instatravelling #travelblogger #getaway #outdoors - 6 hours ago