So, here is the locker room selfie I promised you, along with the novel I promised you
You may have noticed that I reduced my speedwork mileage this week & cryptically told you that I was changing things up. The broad reason is because I was feeling super rundown and overwhelmed, but there are parts of that worth getting into.
My body was super tired. I hit a wall this weekend. I had a massive headache all weekend, was exhausted (couldn't keep my eyes open), and ached all over. Pushing through this kind of fatigue does absolutely nothing for you. It doesn't make you brave or tough because your body has clearly gotten to the point of "pay some f@cking attention to me." I was also super stressed out that I wasn't meeting my workout goals because I was so tired (it's a vicious cycle). Plus, I was beating myself up about not perfect grades during my first year in law school (because I'm super realistic about everything I do 🙄).
Obviously I'm running again. How did I fix it?
1. I decided I'm not drinking til after my marathon. I'm always tired the next day, no matter how little I drink, which doesn't help with morning runs. I also get extreme "anxiety hangovers" and I know that I don't concentrate as well, so drinking is also super unhelpful for interning/school/functioning.
2. I retooled my marathon training plan. I scaled back on some things for a couple of weeks to build a stronger base. I'm still going to hit some 70 mile weeks before race day and my longest run will still be 22 miles. I didn't lose anything: just gave my body a chance to adapt.
3. I started working on reshaping my mindset to be more present and to be more accepting of imperfection in myself. Life happens and I come out on top because I'm super goal-oriented, but I don't let go of things when I've failed and carrying all that around gets heavy after a while. (Let's be real, though, mindset won't change overnight and it's not going to be pretty, but it will be worth it)
If you made it thru, congratulations! You get good luck for the next three hours. Also, if you have ideas/tips/experience in building a stronger you, I'd love to hear them ️ - 2 days ago