" How you live your life is your business. But remember, our hearts and our bodies are given to us only once. "
My lovely Lily,
Today I wasn't at work and this morning outside to finally use my loved bike. I love riding and my new house is next to the sea so I had an amazing time....wind in my hair and freedom...and I started thinking about this quote and my situation.
I moved for the first time, living on my own with my girlfriend and finally away from my past, my parents' anxiety and the bad things that were torturing me daily...Now I have to fight with all the strenght I have to finally be free from the illness that is consuming me. You have no idea of how much I did in the first month, I ate so much and lived so many good memories. I finally feel happy, this is home, this is happiness with the love of my life. I want this forever.
The problem is I am still thinking about 'okay yesterday I had pizza and ice cream so I have to come back on right way today' or 'food ends, not worth it. Better to have salad' but.....our hearts and our bodies are given to us only once.....I don't want to feel guily or dirty if I want to go to the bakery every day, I don't want this torture anymore....I just wish be free now, but it feels hard. The war inside me is super hard...I want to be free.....but I am afraid....but I want to live and live the fullest. Eat what I want and live the traumatic past behind. I want to be strong like you, you are a force of nature my dear. Please just let me be strong and free.
All my love to you every single day, you make me the proudest. ️
Ti voglio bene, your Giulia; .
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