I am facing my feelings about my past relationships. Feelings that arise both from how I was treated and how I treated others.
Allowing them to flow through me and welcoming whatever comes up. Sadness and joy, regret and anger, betrayal and pride, rejection and gratitude, so many many feelings.
I am struggling to forgive those that hurt me so deeply, but harder still, is forgiving myself for my many mistakes.
As I work on processing these emotions, I am slowly able to heal and reframe the past and it's traumas. I can remember where I messed up, learn my lessons, and move forward. I can recall what I learned through the way that people have treated me.
In the midst of all of this, I strive for balance. Yes, I betrayed, hurt, abused, and devalued others. But I try to remember I also owned my mistakes, confessed my faults, asked for forgiveness, and put in all my effort to make living amends. Where I still feel anger at others for not taking ownership, I will do my best to understand we are all on our own paths in our own timelines, and offer Grace.
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