Throwing it back to the time I was 1 of 10 artists named “Ones To Watch” by G.M.C. What an exciting time! It was off of the heels of a Grammy nomination, my album was slated to drop, I was getting placements, I landed a role in an indie film, and then little by little, things began to unravel.
Fast forward some years, my album finally dropped amidst secretly fighting an ambiguous autoimmune condition, compounded by fibromyalgia. Needless to say, I wasn't able to properly promote the record, nor make many dates. All in all, it was/is a solid project that I'm more than proud of, and it still goes!
For years I felt defeated and feared I'd never make a ”comeback”. After all, this thing called music is in my blood man! But as time passed, I began to find purpose in my struggle. “Don't take ownership of it” (I'm constantly reminded by my buddy @warryncampbell ), but it exists, and there are some necessary things you must do in order to deal and function.
Trust, I still have days filled with how's, why’s and what ifs. But I remind myself to treat my struggles as opportunities. An opportunity to show and grow my faith, an opportunity for God to show his power, an opportunity to be humbled, and a reminder of Christ’s suffering for me. I've realized that a ”comeback” ain't got nothin’ on a spiritual glow-up! And yes, I meant to write it just like that. Am I eager to get back in the game? Absolutely! However, what I do know is that God has blessed me with a great deal of talents, and wherever and whenever he sees fit to put me back in, It’ll be right and I’ll be ready.
March is Autoimmune Awareness Month, and I want to encourage all of the chronic illness fighters out there. STOP striving to get back to what you use to be or had. Believe me when I tell you, releasing that is conducive to recovery. Yes, recovery! We've got to believe that we will beat this thing, and stay open to what's ahead. When I write or hashtag push, it's more than a record. It's a mantra, a state of mind! Every single day, I have to encourage myself to PUSH! (continued)️️ - 15 days ago