If you can lie to yourself, you can lie to anyone.
Another of my workout insights. I did the 20 minutes of week 2 day 3 of my program then said I was gonna up my game again. I felt so much better when I moved often and burned fat with a workout for at least 45 minutes or more per day. More honestly. It's been almost a year since I did that.
So I completed the program workout and decided to do another 20 minutes of my elliptical as well. I looked at the clock and it said 3:37, "go til 4pm, Christy," I told myself. I looked again, because my eyes were shut. Ten minutes!!! "It's ok, you can quit, Christy," I told myself.
I was about to when I realized that if I can lie to myself, I can lie to anyone. And that's true. When I wasn't feeling well, even though you could see the pain on my face, within my eyes and how badly I moved, I lied about how I really felt. As if I wasn't worthy of hose feelings. Those little lies has the ability to turn into big one's and turns into who you become.
I'll do this. I'll do that. Tomorrow. Quit. Stop. Later. NEVER.
I realized that the "other" voice wasn't my true inner voice and that it didn't want the best for me. That was the ego who wants control over the situation and of my life. That was the devil talking into my ear. That realization made me mad and I said "no, not today Satan, not in my house. God and Jesus Christ resides here!" I know, I'm weird. I'm cool with that term too. If I use God, if I use His sacrifice of Christ for all that I do, it kicks me in the rear and fills my heart with love, with success, with purpose and with intent.
Before I allowed the devil's whispers of hate, dispair, of punishment, defeat, judgement, accusations, of lacking to interfere with what I did or didn't do. He wants to keep you as low as possible because when he does, we can't feel God or have God's blessings. The Holy Spirit never touches you when the devil wins the battle.
For ME, I wrestled God until the death. He broke me and I thank Him for that struggle. I'll repay Him with continued faith and success.
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