What more can I say?
7 months difference.
This is probably my best transformation picture yet.
To be totally honest, I didn't think I was all that bad....afterall I worked out, I ate well. But I struggled with depression and anxiety massively, I had lots going on in the background that I spoke to nobody because I didn't know who to turn to or how to talk to anyone, I had a massive fear of being judged.
I was the friend who was always there for everyone else and took on everyone else's problems as well as my own.
I was good at covering up and showing I was always happy on the outside.
My favorite place to be was at the gym where I would constantly flog myself.
There wasn't a person or professional that I didn't seek and spend a fortune with and still felt like a failure.
During this time I spent a lot of time at home, indoors and hiding from life. I lost a few friends in this time because I guess they felt neglected and I'd forgotten about them. It was never on purpose and I'm sorry for that. I am forever grateful for the friends I rarely speak to that I know are there when I need them or vice versa and we pick up a conversation like it was yesterday that still check in from time to time.
The past 4 years I have felt like I was living in hell!
Until last year I found some one like I've never been to before, I was able to tell them my story while they listened and took notes. I am forever grateful for that help and support.
I'm now a different much happier person, I've been able to let go of a lot of things, my mind is clearer, no more sleep aponea which means I'm sleeping much better each night.
I'm learning it's not about the numbers on the scales but how I feel mentally, physically and emotionally.
Life is looking bright 🔆 🔆 🔆 🔆 - 57 minutes ago