*Let’s talk about healing*
Something I’m beginning to understand about past hurts is that there is a huge difference between getting over something and truly healing from them. Growing up I didn’t believe in allowing yourself to hurt, or to be a victim because that meant showing weakness and your enemies always attack where you’re weak. But the problem is, when you don’t properly deal with hurts, you can’t move on and they will continue to have power over you. This past week was tough, I cried a lot, including a night where I literally wept and shared one of my biggest vulnerabilities with a group of strangers. This past summer I prayed and asked God to search my heart and get rid of the things not of Him and while it certainly wasn’t something I planned on, I truly believe I’m in a season where the Lord wants to bring healing. Sometimes, healing requires going back into the hurt, feeling the emotions and coming out the other side stronger. Today I ran into a friend I haven’t spoken to since the hurt and while, he probably had no idea, the words he shared hit my heart as if they had come directly from God. It was everything, my hurting heart and weary soul needed to hear today. I walked away, burst into tears and immediately said “thank you God” about hundred times. I have a tendency to run from hurt, to glaze over it and to heal inadvertently, but it appears this time God wants me to go through it, in order to heal. God knows everything about us. He sees the shame, He sees the things we want to hide, He sees our hurt and He sees the future. He knows what you need to heal from today, in order to live a life on fire for Him, impacting other people. Dealing with hurt head-on isn’t easy, but I’m excited to see what God does with my story.
As my professor said tonight- life is going to leave you scarred, but it’s okay because scars tell some amazing stories. •
📸: @leilaniharling - 2 months ago