Periods. I spoke with my therapist today about my recovery. Because the thing is this week I GOT MY PERIOD BACK 😯 Probably the best feeling ever, but also the worst.
What did it mean for my recovery? Was I recovered now? Was my body good where it is? But why is my BMI still not quite in the normal range? Surely I'm recovered now??? What about my poorly head?? 🤯 NO. The answer is no I'm still not recovered. I have had one period, in 7 years. My head still tricks me to restrict, it tells me my bloated tummy is fat, that my weight gain is ridiculous (not essential), that I'm well yet all I do is think about food, worry about food. I won't accept sweet treats from people and this donut. It took me 5 hours to convince myself to eat after a 'carb heavy day' - normal people don't think about this. Hurry up brain #recover - 1 day ago