Hannah (or Han) here! I apologize in advance that this will be a lengthy read. (•́ㅿ•̀;) This year I want to work hard on my own style of dance and strive to better my vocals and sing confidently. I want to figure out how not to push or burn myself out and continue to aim for more self love and care so that I can let lnav depend on me more. I want to be a voice for cosplayers and other dancers about the importance of your health and how to cope.
I tend to have a lot of obstacles in my way, and I work hard to bypass them but I won’t lie when I say that I've felt defeated while trying to remain in a positive mindset. In 2018 I did what was best for me and the group and took a long hiatus to receive the help I needed due to my physical & mental health.
A high concern of mine has always been that I'm holding the group back from being at their best but I need to put myself and my health first. I’ve been better at being vocal when I hit my physical limits but there was always an inkling of guilt to go with it even when members said they understood or told me to take a break. I want to continue to better myself and work on trying to ease those feelings of guilt. If I’m sitting on the sidelines taking notes, I also want to encourage the other members rather than feel like I’m slowing them down.
A step I took was that I learned to become more accepting of myself or things I physically can’t control. That is still a WIP, but trying is better than not! My fellow members have said that it’s okay to ask them for help, so I want to thank them instead of apologizing each time I do.
I’m not planning to go to many cons unless it’s lnav/MW related. While putting on live performances are fun, I want also want to do interactive panels again and have a good time with the audience. I want to continue to meet people within the community and show them my support. I would love to plan a meet up and hang out with everyone.
I am excited that we are planning dance shots and received the funds to record! I hope we are able to film a few videos (I really want to do subgroups... badly!). I hope this year is bright for our group and for everybody! Please look forward to our growth. ♡ - 5 days ago