Well, first of all, as you can see, I have zero patience. Maybe it's because I've been waiting so long to do this Instagram blog.
Just to give you some perspective on where I'm at in my journey. I'm almost 4 years past the point I felt my marriage started to unravel (although maybe it had already started and I hadn't noticed) and just past 2 years of the divorced being finalized.
My divorce journey. The line has definitely not been straight. It's very wavy, looping back and forth, ups and downs...But the line has moved forward, slowly but surely. I'll touch on many different topics that, by themselves, are a dot on that line.
The beginning of this journey (as I knew it then)...I had taken the kids to a cottage a few hours north of where we live. It was a summer vacation we always took. He didn't come. It was the first time he didn't join us. He said he had to work (which was a viable excuse at that time). But when I called to check in or chat, he wouldn't answer. When I began to worry, leaving voicemails, he finally returned a call. He was rushed, acted annoyed that I was calling. I knew in my gut something wasn't right. I told my family and left the kids with them and drove the 3 hours home.
I can't remember who walked into our home first. Me or him. The next thing I remember I was sitting in our living room, looking at him, asking him to tell me what was going on.
He opened his mouth. "I don't love you anymore. I never look forward to coming home to you. I don't love you anymore. I don't think I can ever get that feeling back." And that was the beginning to an end... - 27 minutes ago