I just installed canva back again and found this. I just can't believe how high quality my thinking was.
When I started my PhD, I was very desperate back in March 2013. I had only 800€ in s account, scared as fuck from unemployment, I accepted my professors offer for a position in faculty, even though I had no genuine desire to do research.
Fast forward two years (mid 2013 to mid 2015), I just did pleasure seeking. I was an impostor. I remember days and weeks going by, I was secretly watching YouTube videos at work. I played fifa for whole weekends.
I don't remember how exactly, I somehow had a spark. I remember reading authors like Stephen covey, eckhart tolle and Dale Carnegie.
I understood that although I hated doing research, it was the thing I had in hand. I could either finish my PhD, or abandon it and go do what I wanted : to go into industry and design / tinker technical stuff. This was about autumn 2015.
I chose the second way, because 1) my professor needed me to finish my research desperately and I liked the guy 2) I needed the paycheck 3) I just needed to finish this and I'd have a doctorate, the costs of success seemed small.
I talked my professor, agreed on a plan and got busy all day. I remember working like a bull. I was so driven on those 9-10 months. I published 7-8 articles, finished my PhD, posted daily on my Instagram page quote pictures like this and read like 20 books. I saved about 12k money, made another 3k in stock market. Most importantly, I felt in control. So much in control of my own life. I was busy doing things in my control and it was giving me more control every day.
On 21 April 2017, I defended my thesis at 27 years of age. I was so badly in flow and it all started with this: being busy with things you can control.
I've never enjoyed life like I did from January 2016 to April 2017 before and since then ever. It's amazing how habits become character and how malleable our personalities are. We are really what we do.
Never underestimate the effect of one industrious day. The momentum you build becomes your character some day. Go do something for yourself.
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