17 vs 23
Left: was a girl crippled with anxiety, exercising for hours a day, living off barely any food, excessive laxatives and feigning a social life and sense of normality just to convince people I was fine.
Right: still has an unhealthy relationship with food, cries about her body, and doesn’t have abs BUT the smile is REAL the joy and living of life is REAL. The girl although cocooned in a body she doesn’t feel like she can breathe in is REAL.
I’d be lying if I’d said I’d had some miraculous discovery where I’ve found myself in this bigger body and everything is perfect! Because the truth is I still get stuck in an excessive binge starve cycle, I cancel social situations because I feel so anxious, and I talk negatively about myself all the time! But when I say I’m thriving more than I ever had I truly am, and this journey to self love is a lengthy process and I’m only human!!! But at least now I have real, meaningful connections, I’m in my final year of drama school in London, I go out with my friends, I travel the world, I LIVE and LOVE in a way anorexia used to make me think was never possible!
Why am I posting this? Maybe I need the reminder myself that it’s all a process, and that where I am today was once an age I never thought I’d live to see! So for all those struggling no matter how small, keep fighting because YOU are worth the battle ️ #smiletohealth - 17 hours ago