Have you ever been a 34 year old only “CHILD” living with your mother? Well I AM.
There’s nothing cute about my current living situation but what can I do?
I can afford to move out in a heart beat but my mum is ageing (early 60s) and I want to be there for her. Actually I’ve been there for her since we lost my dad 14 years ago just when I left uni and at the time I was the naive 20 year old who wanted to be there for her only surviving parent out of guilt of not being there for her dad while he was dying. I had exams in school (MY FINALS) and everyone including my dad thought it was a superb idea to not tell me my husband was dying LITERALLY THE LOVE OF MY FUVKING LIFE (The was actually a typo but 🏽it looked cute Cos I would always spell fuck to the fullest ). TBH Since I lost my dad, the only reason I haven’t been in any committed relationship is simply Cos the last man I committed to left and didn’t tell me he was leaving. He actually thought it was cute to call me the morning before he died to ask if I had enough money for the next 3 months LOL NOW but not LOL THEN.
I have this deep seated fear that I’d open up to someone again become friends, then lovers and probably life partners and then they’d leave me like my dad did, NO WARNING JUST A HEFTY BANK ACCOUNT that actually hasn’t run out ever since.
But bruh my mum be getting on my last creative nerve . Talking about how I go to work every morning and just sit down on my chair and do nothing.
Guys on a normal day I’m a very considerate person and I’ll usually make excuses for the type of things my mum says to me but lord knows I was not in the mood for a brief session of emotional/verbal abuse. So guess what I did? 🤣 yea you guessed right! I lashed out watchumean I’m doing nothing?! I literally pay every DAMN bill, currently building and still juggle my 9-5 and business (except for a few days when I work remotely for each of my Jobs) watchumean DOING NOTHING?! ️.
Now I’m getting apologies but Mum, I don’t want Cos I don’t understand how we went from talk about doing the dishes to this is why I’m single.
God knows I’m lowkey scouting for a fake BOYFRIEND 🙄 - 4 months ago