HANDS UP IF YOU’RE A SELF CONFESSED CONTROL FREAK? 🏼♀️🏼♀️🏼♀️
I have been mentally exhausted and in a not so great place the past few months, not only because I am always wanting to have control over how things will work out (which will never happen btw) but also because I have been letting things take control over me.
Years of competing have conditioned me to make training and diet my main priority every day. I HAVE to train every day because I’m lazy if I don’t, I HAVE to track all my meals because if I don’t I’ll get fat. My aesthetic goals have always taken priority over anything else in my life, and I don’t regret a thing, I’ve learnt a lot of over the years. But what happens when you’re constantly telling yourself you have to do something, even when you don’t want to? You start feeling resentful, angry, frustrated. How do you achieve anything else in life when you aren’t giving yourself the choice? It’s actually terrifying for me to think about putting other areas of life before fitness, because fitness is “who I am”. I am also many other things and turns out I have interests and goals that aren’t fitness related! 🤣 And that fear also tells me that it’s necessary.
So I’m taking a small step back, I’m not tracking my food at all, just eating what I feel my body needs and what i feel like. I’ll train whatever I feel like doing on the day, and if I want to take a nap instead I will allow myself to do that. For me, even following a flexible dieting approach still feels like I’m “dieting” and since I’ve allowed myself to eat without any restriction or numbers I’ve found I have less cravings or feelings of wanting to eat for no reason. So we’ll see how it goes for a little while. But for now I’m happy to focus more energy into other interests and be less “body focussed (obsessed)” 🦋
#controlfreak #letitgo #calmdown #energy #focus #mentalhealth - 18 hours ago