Do you ever soul search? Reflect on the things from your past that prevented you from moving forward? I never have but I do often now. Why!? Keep reading.
I thought about this a while back. I almost drowned, not once, not twice, but three times. The first time was in Hawaii. I was under 5 years old. Everyone was in the pool and I wanted to be in it too. I took off running, unafraid and jumped into the pool. I was so young and it was so traumatic that I really can't recall the events, I just REMEMBER it happened.
The next incident was @ 9 years old. I stood on top of the diving board ready to jump. All of a sudden a fear swelled up inside of me. I saw how far down it was into the water and became afraid. I recalled how I felt when I was younger. Not being able to breathe, suffocating. I wanted to go back down but people were looking at me. The only way down was to jump. I took a deep breath and jumped!
It seemed like hours before I surfaced and I took in tons of water. I was helped out and I forgot about this incident. At least until I found myself standing on top of another diving board as a teen. Everyone was cheering me on, "Go, Christy!!" But something began to happen again. FEAR. The memories that I pushed aside about drowning were once again coming back up. And once again I was back against the wall with only two options; jump and drown or go back down and be made fun of. I did jump. I did swallow water, but I made it. But after that last attempt, I never got back on a diving board and I've always been afraid of water if it covered anymore than my lower body.
Emotions, fears, etc are not only felt inside but they're also retained, stored and absorbed. I not only retained my own unresolved emotions, I absorbed the emotions from the ones who were around me during these traumatic time; my parents and friends. When we are unaware of our own personal power based upon emotions, we lack and suffer.
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