My time in Bali... What did I learn? What has changed?
I am capable of more than I thought, I am stronger than I thought. I can stand up for myself and care for myself. I slept alone at night, I ate some meals in restaurants by myself (including some big fears), I took care of myself, I cried and when there was nobody I supported myself, I arrangt what I needed and listened to my feelings! I never believed that I would do that, but I am doing it and it feels good. Mostly on the most scary and terrible moments, you find out what you really can. I see and feel that I grow, learn and live! This is life. And of course I am still in recovery and I am not there yet, but now I take steps, real steps. The tiny little steps, the quasi recovery, fearfood once a month? that time is over. I take bigger steps now, I go out of my comfortzone, I face what scares me and not once a month, but everyday! Now I finally make progress and I can see it. I feel myself growing stronger I am ready for life️ - 53 minutes ago