I'm Sorry... I'm gonna apologize for this post because I know that you are not used to this. My account has always been known as an optimistic account where I've Always written Happy and positive captions under My posts. Well...lately I'm not really here because I'm feeling kinda "sad" with no reason... My Demons came and Idk how to send them back in the past... They want to surround me again and not let me walk over them, they are like chains that keep me in a prison and that prison is made of worries and insecurities and fear of everything. I Just want to run away and I feel like I can't because I'm too weak to break the chains. I've always been a fighter, expecially thanks to you all and to this family and to music I've felt so Happy and strong but now I feel alone... And maybe I Need sometime to think about myself and what I want from my Life because I Need to know that!
This is not a goodbye guys, we'll see again and I'll Be back posting as soon as I'll feel better. I Hope you understand me and I'm so Sorry again for this but I Need some time to breath. Don't worry I'll try my best to stay here on my DMs and thankyou for Being my family, I feel so grateful
The quote in this post is so important. Sometimes I Just think about me and expecially During hard days like this, I feel like the most terrible thing on earth... I see myself in the mirror and I look at my face and I feel terrible, then I look at my body and I hear all the voices of people judging me... Idk If One day I'll Be self confident and I Wish so because I think that that's where my Demons come from..
Insecurities are something bad and when I listen to "YELLOW" by coldplay and the quote "look at the stars, look how they Shine for you" I feel hugged by them, I think that maybe in the end I'm not that bad, I believe that in a way I'm beautiful and maybe I'm too stupid for not seeing that, I think that each One of us has a light inside and we Just have to let It out or then we Will Just burn inside and That's not right. We all have the light in our eyes and we Can't keep hiding that, we don't have to Be ashamed to show ourselves to others, JUST BE YOU AND BE HAPPY THAT'S WHAT REALLY MA - 18 days ago