The other day I read this quote on how broken people love. It was about having walls built, trust issues where trust had not yet been broken, a constant fear and watchfulness for something that did not yet exist.
And it hurt, it hurt to know I could relate. To know that hit home so hard.
It also made me grateful that I had an opportunity presented long before I needed it, that allowed me to practice loving myself before I needed to give everything to myself.
It's been a year and a half since my world went dark. Since everything I knew as my future was destroyed.
And I've never been more grateful that through the hardest times of my life I was given a gift that helped me learn to love myself through a time I faulted myself for everything. And even more, blessed with a family who never backs down from lifting you up, who loves unconditionally when you're the least loveable.
Then I found this quote.
And THIS spoke to me even LOUDER!
Oh how true. . .
Since as far back as I can remember, I've fallen in love with broken people.
Yearned to help them, heal them, even at my own expense.
Dont love someone else while broken.
Dont break others along the way because someone else broke you.
Become your own healer.
Love the hell out of yourself.
Learn to enjoy YOU again, or for the first time!
Learn what makes you tick,
what gets you up in the morning,
what brings you joy.
Keep searching until you find it.
And then repeat it,
The smile will return and your heart will begin to mend. And someday, when you know your OWN worth, someone will come along that recognizes your worth and lifts it up higher.
Until then, love yourself, heal yourself.
If you're struggling, please reach out.
I've been there, I go back there, but I have the tools to pull the myself back out.
Let me share that gift with you this season of giving
You're worth so much more than being in that place! - 11 hours ago