It’s amazing how quick I was to label myself crazy, sensitive, and emotional. The words were planted and nursed for years without any awareness but still, I took them as fact. My first thought each time my gut screamed ️ warning ️was that I needed to change, that there was something wrong with me! I’d automatically silence it, telling myself how illogical and insane I was.
About 5 years ago, I remember the addict came home from an AA meeting really enthusiastic about the book, The Four Agreements. He asked me to order it immediately and even before it arrived he began to teach me the one that applied directly to me...”don’t make assumptions.” It became the new answer to everything. Miguel Ruiz, may have written an entire book, it may have had 3 other agreements in it and a great deal of lessons but the only part that seemed to matter was that I needed to stop making assumptions.
I silenced my intuition for so long thinking I was the problem, thinking that if I could be less sensitive and just brush things off easily I’d be happy. Meanwhile I’d had the answers inside me all along. #higherpower #intuition #lies #honesty #truth #infidelity #cheating #trust #addicthusband #codependency #alanon #codependentnomore #gaslighting #emotionalabuse #narcissist #addiction #drugs #sex #cheating #awareness #newbeginning #freshstart - 4 hours ago