Hello to my 44th year! Deep bow of heart felt gratitude to all who sent me a message of love, in any form. It's humbling and sweet to be loved by so many. I did my best to open my heart wide and let it all flow in.
Special thanks to my Mom for making the day sweet, yummy decadent dinner and fun paper crafting gifts.
Hubs was extra confused and unsettled today, so I shared all the love that you gave to me with him.
Birthdays with dementia spouses are tough. This is the first year I'm really feeling it. Last year, Hubs was so different.. more present and aware. This year he couldn't understand that it was my birthday.
Tonight as I helped him into bed, I paused and caught his eyes. He asked me if I miss him. Instantly, I choked up and could only nod. He whispered, I miss me too. Then he paused for a long moment and said he was sorry about my birthday. I assured him that there was nothing to apologize for and I love him always. Then I bawled silently as I brushed my teeth.
Then I bought myself the Yoga downloads I've been wanting, as my gift from Hubs.
Being a dementia caregiver wife has taught me how vital, challenging and sweet it is to love and care for myself. That's a huge gift, no birthday needed. - 5 hours ago