Since I’ve healed from my concussion and my brain and life have been thriving, the one thing over the years I’ve had regret about was not journaling how I felt ‘in the moment’ when I was going through my injury. I bring my journal with me everywhere and I was experiencing so much trauma and in so much pain at the time I didn’t think I’d ever forget. Sure, I wrote and talked about it afterwards but something about writing raw and in the moment was a regret of mine.
Well here I am years later sitting at my table hooked up to what I know is the greatest tool I was given from God to heal.
Be careful what you ask for. Today (2.7.2019), I hit my head again. I smashed it on my magnifying lamp at work and the divine timing of it instantly brought me back to a place of anxiety, confusion, bad headache, feeling alone, depressed, extremely agile, scared, sad and so so foggy. A place I prayed to never go back to. A place I pray others never have to be...ESPECIALLY our children.
The blessing in all of this is that I knew this time it wasn’t half as bad and there was a bright light at the end of the darkness. I HAD to get home for a session.
Angela @mindbalance_neurofeedback THANK YOU! Because of you, I know this too shall pass and I know it will quickly and in the highest and best way.
As I sit here doing my session just halfway in, my mind settles and my heart fills with God’s unconditional love and the most beautiful wave of calmness and healing fills my soul. Back to my Theta state and my mind balanced! Thank you God!
Now my rant...If your child, you yourself or anyone you know has suffered from a concussion or any brain injury, help them and help yourself. Too many people walking around not living the life they deserve. Hiding in a dark place behind their brain trauma. They don’t know how to ask or they don’t even know there is help. At one point I wanted to kill myself. It makes me heartbroken to even think people are living this way. We are all children of God and we are all so loved. Thank you God for answering my prayers to be able to write in the moment of how it felt during one of my darkest times. And thank you God for not making it worse🏽️ - 3 days ago