They always say the hardest step is the first step. So here goes.. I’ve had this page set up for sometime now. Several posts have been written ready to post, but every time I have backed out right at the final click. I guess it’s that fear of failing. That fear of what others may think. The fear of judgement and the fear of sheer embarrassment. “Why will people care what I have to say?” “What makes me think that what I have to say is worthy?” “What If people think I’m annoying, or up myself for thinking people will actually care for what I have to say?” “What if what I write is just no good?”.. Struggling with dyslexia and general verbal diarrhoea, I find myself writing pages and pages but often it’s just the same shit reworded and actually includes very little substance. So I apologise in advance.
I’ve realised, this inner critic has stopped me from perusing a lot of things in my life that I’ve wanted to, and that when it comes down to it we are often our own harshest critics. The reality is if we continue to think that way about every situation in life we’d eventually end up letting it stop us from ever doing anything, for the fear others might not approve.
I’m doing this for me! For once I’m going something for me. For me, it’s a place to relieve some of the brain chatter and by putting pen to paper, it allows me to be more open and honest with myself, it allows space and time to connect with what’s really going on, how I really feel and what’s worth the obsessing over and what is simply not. (I’ve written too much for one post so find the rest postedin the comments) - 15 days ago