#bpdhurts

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The above pic is of my Aunt Patty. She passed away on Saturday, January 12th, 2019.
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Just us kids are left now. She was the last of my dad's brothers/sisters to die. Due to some unfortunate circumstances, I hadn't been close to her in years. However, she was family and a part of my life, thus the loss still hurts.
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Struggling w/death has always been an issue for me & BPD has been of no help in this arena. The black & white thinking coupled w/extreme emotions tend to see us bottle everything up & close ourselves off or deal w/it in an outpouring of crying, depression, anger & unhealthy coping, accompanied by that nauseating feeling of no end in sight.
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When my dad unexpectedly died, alcoholism became a way of life & health issues began to quickly arise, several of which I'm still dealing w/to this day. I drank & drank & drank for years. Certain songs would send me into a tailspin of crying bouts, guilt & regret. It was a cycle which tried it's damndest to tear me apart &, unfortunately, I stood by & watched it do just that.
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Grieving is a process which doesn't happen overnight. You need to allow yourself the time to sort through all of those feelings/emotions, let them out & heal. Working through this process w/a therapist, counselor, coach, etc. is something I never did, until now. It's been over 15 years of pain (w/my dad) I kept trying to stuff back down, yet it somehow always found a way to resurface & send me plummeting head first down that rabbit hole.
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If you don't deal w/grief head on, it's never going to get better; it will continue to reappear & haunt you. Death can be extremely difficult to handle, especially on one's own. Please don't let pride stand in the way of your mental & physical well being. You're worth whatever it may take to heal & I'm positive those loved ones who passed on would want to see you do just that➡#choosehealingoverhurting
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#bpd #bpdstruggles #bpdhurts #bpdrecovery #ptsd #cptsd #ocd #depression #depressed #anxiety #beatanxiety #suicide #suicideprevention #loss #suicideawareness #grief #mentalhealth #mentalillness #grievingprocess #sadness #guilt #regret #healing #youareworthyofhealing #youaresttongerthanyouthink

. The above pic is of my Aunt Patty. She passed away on Saturday, January 12th, 2019. . Just us kids are left now. She was the last of my dad's brothers/sisters to die. Due to some unfortunate circumstances, I hadn't been close to her in years. However, she was family and a part of my life, thus the loss still hurts. . Struggling w/death has always been an issue for me & BPD has been of no help in this arena. The black & white thinking coupled w/extreme emotions tend to see us bottle everything up & close ourselves off or deal w/it in an outpouring of crying, depression, anger & unhealthy coping, accompanied by that nauseating feeling of no end in sight. . When my dad unexpectedly died, alcoholism became a way of life & health issues began to quickly arise, several of which I'm still dealing w/to this day. I drank & drank & drank for years. Certain songs would send me into a tailspin of crying bouts, guilt & regret. It was a cycle which tried it's damndest to tear me apart &, unfortunately, I stood by & watched it do just that. . Grieving is a process which doesn't happen overnight. You need to allow yourself the time to sort through all of those feelings/emotions, let them out & heal. Working through this process w/a therapist, counselor, coach, etc. is something I never did, until now. It's been over 15 years of pain (w/my dad) I kept trying to stuff back down, yet it somehow always found a way to resurface & send me plummeting head first down that rabbit hole. . If you don't deal w/grief head on, it's never going to get better; it will continue to reappear & haunt you. Death can be extremely difficult to handle, especially on one's own. Please don't let pride stand in the way of your mental & physical well being. You're worth whatever it may take to heal & I'm positive those loved ones who passed on would want to see you do just that#choosehealingoverhurting . . #bpd #bpdstruggles #bpdhurts #bpdrecovery #ptsd #cptsd #ocd #depression #depressed #anxiety #beatanxiety #suicide #suicideprevention #loss #suicideawareness #grief #mentalhealth #mentalillness #grievingprocess #sadness #guilt #regret #healing #youareworthyofhealing #youaresttongerthanyouthink - 27 days ago

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Listen not only to one's voice, but the lack thereof; for there is more pain and truth hidden within such sounds of silence than any spoken word could ever convey...
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#tuesdaythoughts
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#bpd #bpdstruggles #bpdproblems #bpdhurts #bpdrecovery #ptsd #ptsdstruggles #ptsdrecovery #cptsd #cptsd #ocd #bipolar #depression #anxiety #beatanxiety #suicide #suicideawareness #suicideprevention #mentalhealth #mentalillness #trauma #hurt #pain #listen #silence #thesoundofsilence

. Listen not only to one's voice, but the lack thereof; for there is more pain and truth hidden within such sounds of silence than any spoken word could ever convey... . #tuesdaythoughts . . #bpd #bpdstruggles #bpdproblems #bpdhurts #bpdrecovery #ptsd #ptsdstruggles #ptsdrecovery #cptsd #cptsd #ocd #bipolar #depression #anxiety #beatanxiety #suicide #suicideawareness #suicideprevention #mentalhealth #mentalillness #trauma #hurt #pain #listen #silence #thesoundofsilence - 3 months ago

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This was how I spent my day yesterday, repeating the words ‘this will pass’ the anger and emotions associated with having borderline personality disorder, anxiety, depression & complex PTSD... I honestly can’t put into words how much they weigh me down... How much physical pain my anger can cause me. Therapy will help this ❤️ #anxietyrelief #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpdproblems #depressionhelp #depression #depressionhurts #bpdhurts #anxietysucks #anxietyisreal #anxietywarrior #anxietyblog #anxietyblogger #thisisreallife #thisisreal #endthestigma #thisshallpass #itwillpass #itwillgetbetter #itwillpayoff #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mumwithanxiety #momwithanxiety #anxietysurvivor #anxietysucks #anxietysupport #anxietysufferer #blackandwhite #blackandwhitethinking

This was how I spent my day yesterday, repeating the words ‘this will pass’ the anger and emotions associated with having borderline personality disorder, anxiety, depression & complex PTSD... I honestly can’t put into words how much they weigh me down... How much physical pain my anger can cause me. Therapy will help this #anxietyrelief #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpdproblems #depressionhelp #depression #depressionhurts #bpdhurts #anxietysucks #anxietyisreal #anxietywarrior #anxietyblog #anxietyblogger #thisisreallife #thisisreal #endthestigma #thisshallpass #itwillpass #itwillgetbetter #itwillpayoff #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mumwithanxiety #momwithanxiety #anxietysurvivor #anxietysucks #anxietysupport #anxietysufferer #blackandwhite #blackandwhitethinking - 6 months ago

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Each day is getting harder and harder to live with this awful disorder, I don't know how much more I can take. 😢🕳😢 #bpd #bpdhurts #eupd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #bpdproblems #bpdissues #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang😎 #bpdrecovery #bpdstress #bpdiswinning #bpdsucksass #livingwithbpd #livingwithbpdishard #failedrelationship #becauseofbpd #ihurtsomuch #iwanttofeelhappy

Each day is getting harder and harder to live with this awful disorder, I don't know how much more I can take. 🕳 #bpd #bpdhurts #eupd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #bpdproblems #bpdissues #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang 😎 #bpdrecovery #bpdstress #bpdiswinning #bpdsucksass #livingwithbpd #livingwithbpdishard #failedrelationship #becauseofbpd #ihurtsomuch #iwanttofeelhappy - 1 year ago

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Having a hard time with my mental health at the moment, I feel so alone, I feel like nobody understands, I really have no idea how much more I can take 😢😢😢
#bpd #bpdproblems #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #eupd #emotionalunstablepersonalitydisorder #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang😎 #bpdsucks #bpdrecovery #bpdiswinning #iwanttofeelhappiness #bpdhurts #bpdissues #ihatefeelinglikethis #alone #mentalhealth

Having a hard time with my mental health at the moment, I feel so alone, I feel like nobody understands, I really have no idea how much more I can take #bpd #bpdproblems #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #eupd #emotionalunstablepersonalitydisorder #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang 😎 #bpdsucks #bpdrecovery #bpdiswinning #iwanttofeelhappiness #bpdhurts #bpdissues #ihatefeelinglikethis #alone #mentalhealth - 1 year ago

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#bpd #eupd #bpdproblems #bpdissues #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang😎 #bpdwontbetheboss #bpdsucks #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #iwanttofeelhappiness #bpdrecovery #bpdhurts #onedayatatime #bpdstruggles

#bpd #eupd #bpdproblems #bpdissues #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang 😎 #bpdwontbetheboss #bpdsucks #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #iwanttofeelhappiness #bpdrecovery #bpdhurts #onedayatatime #bpdstruggles - 1 year ago

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Sounds about right 🕳😢😔
#bpd #bpdisorder  #eupd #bpdwontbetheboss #bpdstruggles #bpdproblems #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang #bpdstress #bpdrecovery #bpdlife #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #lifestruggles #bpdwontwin #bpdhurts #bpdisscary

Sounds about right 🕳 #bpd #bpdisorder #eupd #bpdwontbetheboss #bpdstruggles #bpdproblems #bpdwarrior #bpdvixen #bpdgang #bpdstress #bpdrecovery #bpdlife #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #lifestruggles #bpdwontwin #bpdhurts #bpdisscary - 1 year ago

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❤️ #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdhurts #tooemotional #toomanyfeelings

#borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdhurts #tooemotional #toomanyfeelings - 3 years ago

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