Juan said something to me last week that really hit home and had me thinking A LOT.
He said “I can tell you’re about to release a book.”
I asked, “Why do you say that?”
He said, “Because you seem stressed and you only get like that when you’re about to put a book out. I talk and sometimes you wander. It’s like you’re here but your mind is somewhere else.”
Y’all. This really hit me. Like a punch straight to the gut.
When it comes to book releases, my anxiety spikes. I’m planning on top of other plans to make sure I’m doing all I can to make it the best release possible. I legit have like 10 jobs in one! But as he always tells me, “that’s what bosses do.” Yeah, I might be stressed, but I get shit done, even if that means locking myself in a room and not leaving until I’ve finished my tasks. I’m extremely ambitious and on top of that I am a creative with a WILD imagination, so my mind is constantly wandering. Call it the bohemian soul in me.
I have moments where I lose touch with reality because I’m so invested/immersed in a book, goal, and so many others things. Not only that, but as many of my family and friends tell me, I am WAY too hard on myself. But without my self-discipline, I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be where I am now. I do feel bad when I wander, especially with my own husband, but I’m fortunate to have his support and his love regardless of what state of mind I’m in.
Trust me, writing is the easy part. I’m never too stressed when I’m writing a story that calls to my soul. But when I know I’m about to put a new book out in the world, it is truly daunting. I have my doubts as well as my fears, but I promise you I am so grateful to be able to do what I love.
To the authors, artists, designers, and other creative souls out there who sometimes wander and get lost, I get you! TRUST ME! You are not alone!
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