Let's talk about my personal #barriers
Anyone that had hung around me knows that externally I'm very laid back and down to earth, and when it comes to other people I will always give the benefit of the doubt and be very forgiving, #waterunderthebridge #turntheothercheek #shithappens
But when it comes to myself I give myself no room for error or any form of #forgiveness in fact anything less than achieving 100% when in relation to myself is a #failure and gives me a feeling that I could have worked harder.
Atm I have five major goals, #BLACH which are bike, living, activity, career and health, all of which are at different levels, different time frames etc but are all progressing.
One such "goal" (i use tgat word loosely as it's more like finding something that's lost than something to be achieved or conquered) is not included.
The past few years I have been suffering from acute #anxiety about no longer existing as well as #BDD in not thinking I'm physically good enough no matter what level I achieve.
However both of these have now been pushed back for the introduction of #depression all because of a wanting for something that's unobtainable (at least I believe it's unabtainble)
Some might say that it's only because it can't be had that drives me to want it more, like reverse physiology, when in fact this is incorrect it's a mixture of having something that has made me truly content no matter what other negative situations may occur but also the #guilt and #blame that I put on my own shoulders of everything I could have done to prevent it's loss.
My #advice to anyone that is gong through #defeat and for whatever reason #acceptance is not an option, reach out to peyote that care, or understand, or have knowledge about the situation.
Loneliness tends to be a coping mechanism but instead of fixing it only exacerbates a problem.
Take away the effort given to an uncontrollable situation and use that effort in a different area, maybe a goal, a hobby, a party of your life that brings joy, something constructive or creative, energy into fulfilling contentment rather than spiralling into self destruction.
Lastly try and stay #optamistic - 14 hours ago