Either scroll right through or read. I am at a point in my life where I realize what matters and what does not. I have gone through several coaches who were all super wonderful, but I was the problem. I was the one in denial of a huge issue I had with myself. You're probably thinking here she goes with one of her stupid motivational speeches, no. This year and from this point moving forward it's no denial, just honesty. I had a terrible eating disorder for those of you who talk but don't know my story. I suffered anxiety, depression, and it cost me friendships, health, and life joys. What in the hell was I thinking? I started with coaches because I wanted to get the "ideal" body. Gtho with that maddie. Then I would cry myself to sleep because I felt "fat" when i weighed a whopping 103lbs. I found @jenbretty and @lexi_deyoung
Via YouTube at weakest my point. After several weeks, I started realizing that this shit is stupid and I need to stop and actually get on track with myself. I started going to @maxfitnessfortwayne
And it changed my life. I started eating more seeing my body change in a good healthy way, my relationships improved, my mental health improved 10xs a million.
My point being, it took me 6 years people, 6 years to overcome an illness that controlled me. Not going to lie this still haunts me, especially now that I weigh more than I have in years, but it does NOT control who I, what I do, etc. I now count macros, compete with myself to be better physically and spiritually, and have felt such relief. I have decided to compete because I am passionate about bodybuilding and want to help others who have put their body through hell like myself.
I don't want a congratulations or a sob story with this. But those of you that think you know someone and don't get their background, all I say is ask. I cannot thank my parents, brothers, and friends enough for putting up with me!
Ps.. I will be doing online workout/macro guides if interested
#bodybuilding #bairaesthetics #growth #builtbyfaith #macros #nutrition #teambpi #bpisports #alphapack #bafam #sunday #positivity #listentoyourbody - 27 days ago