I was admitted into hospital last Thursday for a week. I had been deteriorating slowly since October and all of a sudden I noticed a massive weight loss and huge change in my health. I looked awful and I felt awful.
I knew my history is complex as it is, so being unknown to the IBD team down here was straight up scary. The question was, am I relapsing? Thankfully no, and boy did I cry with joy when I heard “there’s no sign of active crohn’s” because I really am grateful it’s not a relapse.
However, I have been diagnosed with endometriosis with an endometrioma cyst on my left ovary and polycystic cysts on my right ovary. This broke me. Some days, it still does. In fact I’ve cried three times whilst writing this post (I’m only human)! I don’t think I’ve cried so much. Ever since I was told about the cyst and suspected endo, the only thing running through my mind is - what does this mean for my future? It all made sense. Even consultants said it’s not usual to experience symptoms of endometriosis mid-cycle. Of course, my body never fails to do the most and it’s giving me chronic pain 24/7. Literally. I’m on regular paracetamol, codeine and morphine yet I’m still in pain - but a comfortable pain (if you can call it that). My recent lifestyle choices did not impact this and this post is to show, don’t believe everything you see on social media. On other platforms I portray myself as a healthy woman, but you never know what someone is dealing with behind closed doors.
It’s taken me a LOT to share this with you but this is my outlet, it’s the way I express myself. It’s one of the ways I turn my weakness into strength.
Anyone going through a similar situation with endo, I’d really appreciate any advice/experiences. Feel free to drop me a DM. It’s time for me to learn to love myself and be badass *To my family members that follow me on here, please do not take offence, this is something I wish to deal with personally. With the most respect please refrain from sending me messages regarding this and worrying others, I am managing in my own way*
Huge thank you to my girl @chronically_successful @samwilkinson18 for the past couple of days. .
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