I finally finished the article I was working on, and it was accepted to be published this summer. Its a narrative self reflection about gender, power, and care. It includes the word “obfuscate” and a discussion of shame. This essay obsessed me for weeks, but now that its written, I feel strangely adrift. .
In my life I've had the privilege to experience a kaleidoscope of selves and situations. Long wanders around the world push you into ways of being that would not have previously made sense. Trying to extract one moment, or one way of seeing that moment, from all that context, is like trying to extract the color green from a blade of grass. Without the color the grass doesn't really make sense, but without the grass, the color green could mean anything. All these things are embedded in each other. .
Five years ago I couldn't have written the essay I just finished; five years from now I will write it differently. Sometimes I find that intriguing; sometimes it just disturbs. How does one manage the most basic facets of human identity and connection when the very perception of the experience of those facets is so malleable, and in so much motion?
I think this is why authentic engagement with our feelings and thoughts, individual and collective, is so important. Its actually all that relationships are made out of. The expression and validation of feelings is the expression and validation of boundaries; the way we think and talk about those feelings is the way we understand those boundaries. And those boundaries are what allow us to fit our wonky-shaped selves up against one another without stabbing each other with our sharp edges. .
You're welcome for all the really awesome relationship advice. :) #wonkyshapedselves
I'll just be here, surrounded by one billion cicadas, thinking about things that ravage me. Its cool, its cool. .
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