I’m proud to say that today marks one year of not drinking, and it’s been one of the most rewarding years of my life. *warning* lengthy word-vomit post follows:
I used to drink heavily, for all the wrong reasons. I didn’t realize I had a problem until I signed up for a nutrition challenge at my gym a year and a half ago where I had to give up alcohol (along with sugar/gluten/dairy) for 6 weeks, and I struggled. It terrified me how difficult it was, and it became clear I’d been using alcohol as a crutch to avoid my thoughts and emotions. During those 6 weeks, I slept better, I could concentrate at work, my gym performance skyrocketed, and my general outlook on life improved.
The 6 months that followed, I experimented with phasing alcohol back in, hoping to be more aware of moderation, and only drinking on weekends. While I’d improved drastically, I inevitably experienced one of the most regrettable nights of my life at the end of 2017 - all because I was too inebriated to think clearly and stand up for myself. It sucks to learn a lesson the hard way, but boy does that ensure the lesson sticks.
It wasn’t easy - physically, emotionally, or socially. From the stressful days at work when I just wanted to come home to a big glass of wine, to watching people hesitate to invite me out (or just not invite me at all) because I “don’t drink”. I had to learn how to relax and socialize at events without alcohol to “take the edge off.” I’ve learned to care less about what other people think (sober dancing will definitely teach you that) and also that it’s ok to have uncomfortable and difficult emotions. In the end, it’s better to feel and experience them fully than to numb them with alcohol. I’m forever thankful to my friends and family for their support, and reassuring me I didn’t need to drink, even on the darkest of days. I could not have done it without them.
So here I am, one full year of mental clarity, life lessons, and personal growth later. For the first time in a very long time, I am actually proud of something I’ve accomplished.
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