These early morning shadows
Tickling the carpet
For once, hold no fear.
This air, passing through my nostrils
Searching for my lungs,
Chilled by early autumn
Is unabashedly, simply, gently itself: air.
Fresh, clean, pure.
This silence is changed.
It is different from the last time we got together,
As if while we were parted, it learned in inhale
For the first time, it allows me to do the same.
We breathe in harmony, the first few notes of a piece previously unknown, unheard of.
The creaky floors, the sound of footsteps,
The awakening of the staircase,
All are calm and are, unabashedly, themselves.
The morning noises hold no angst.
Nothing sticks around my heart except a tiny pushpin of hope.
This morning has brought both glancing over shoulders.
I am not waiting in myself for ruin or endings.
I am, unabashedly, simply, quietly, myself: me.
Painstakingly, achingly, cautiously, slowly
I loosen the knots in my body, my mind.
I dare to soothe and shush my mind,
Allowing prose to blanket the past for just this moment.
"I am here. I am now. I am being." I whisper.
The softest of smiles tugs at my lips.
I close my eyes to feel it blooming within.
I allow myself to breathe, independent of anxiety.
I allow myself to feel, with no end date.
I allow myself to let this glimmer grow.
I wonder if this is a Beginning, The Beginning,
Of a Healing so exquisite, so quietly strong,
The kind with a Phoenix Hero, fighting with every ounce of strength they have left
To make it through the muck and ash, coming so close to the End
Only to rise as flame.
The kind with that moment where Good prevails And wells up, so overwhelmingly alive inside you
That it breaks with the waves
And overflows with a victorious whisper of "YES." "Is that what this is? Is that what I feel the Beginnings of?" I ask.
And oh, my darling heart,
Broken, taped, stitched,
Beaten yet beating, still fighting,
My heart, that has gone through so much with me,
My heart, takes one, shuddering breath of life
And at 9:19am
"YES." #poem #poet #amateurpoet #depression #anxiety #awareness #ptsd #recovery #healing #healingtakestime #mentalhealth #alwayskeepfighting - 2 minutes ago