🌧 It has been a pretty gloomy spring thus far in Chicago.
It sort of matches the mood I’m in, though.
These are the small ways I can tell that I am going into a depressive episode:
😴 Insomnia - i sleep for a couple hours, and then I’m awake for hours (frustrated that I can’t sleep), and then *maybe* I’ll fall asleep for a few more hours.
🛌 When I am stable, I typically sleep throughout the night with no problems. If my sleep is interrupted, I’m able to fall back asleep easily.
🏻♀️ I start to dread waking up in the mornings. It will start as a quick, passing thought, maybe that I don’t want to be awake or that I don’t want to get out of bed, just sort of annoyed at the idea of starting the day.
🏻♀️ It will slowly turn into thoughts that stick around longer and occur more often. A lot of these intrusive thoughts could be linked to the insomnia and fact that I’m not getting enough sleep. It definitely seems like the insomnia begins first.
🧠 When I am stable, getting out of bed in the morning is not even a thought, it is just something I do without thinking.
And then, I notice a change in my energy levels. Basic activities tire me out much quicker. I require more rest. I try to get a nap in if I’m able, because the sleep does help improve my mood.
All of the above can make me incredibly irritable.
I have heard some people say that bipolar is like a sleep disorder, and I can see the comparison at times. It seems like the trouble with sleeping sets everything else off. This is just my experience, though.
If you live with bipolar, and you’re up for sharing, how can you tell that you are entering a depressive episode?
And if you’re not able to tell, that’s okay. It takes time and our episodes don’t necessarily present the same way every time. It is SO hard to decipher what is causing what (especially if you live with multiple illnesses) - these are just the patterns that I’ve noticed in my life. - 4 hours ago