This year will forever go down in history as the year God restored it all. I had become so hard in my heart & disconnected. God brought back all of the love I've ever lost- the love I had forfeited because of life's lulls & out of body reactions to circumstances. I had forgotten myself man... my child-like self: the girl who could create life out of cardboard boxes, the girl who would have $5 in her pocket but somehow find a way to make gifts for all of her friends, the girl who used to get lost in the woods & laugh about anything & do cartwheels in the middle of the street. The girl who loved to pile up in the bed with her fam on a Sunday afternoon to watch tv. The girl who would open up her home to everyone. That girl was full of Love. She exeduded Love, but somewhere along the way, she became too busy to Love- too hurt for Love & then too estranged from her own self to be Love.
Earlier this week I dealt with some shady business & a friend said to me "You have a good heart. People will take advantage of that, especially in your industry. You have to remember that everyone is not like you." He was saying it as if I should alter who I am, as if I should be guarded & watch my back at all times. Been there. Done that. Got the t-shirt, can write a book & best selling movie y'all. Having all of your walls up-- sure it protects you... somewhat. It also prevents anything real & worthwhile & beautiful from entering as well. We go through pain in life to make us resilient, strong, kind, gracious. It's not supposed to make us calloused & hard. That defeats the purpose of who we were born to be. .
I believe that we reap what we sew. I'm not worried about people who don't mean me well. Trust me, I'm protected I fought like hell to get here- fought like hell to un-wash my brain, to allow myself to be soft again, to be vulnerable even when it's terrifying. I'm still stumbling along the way, but I am so ecstaticaly grateful that I can look in the mirror and actually see... ME.
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