#TheGreaterFolk : Hi, I’m Samreen Tungekar, a Journalist and I’m coloured with #ManicDepression and #Anxiety .
# What was your lowest point and what was your positive takeaway from it?
I've always had points that have been lower than the previous one.
But there was a time last year when I started self-harming, something I didn't do earlier.
I believe it came from a place where I thought I deserved pain.
I have always had unfulfilling relationships, friendships and family equations that have only made me feel like I lack what it takes to be loved.
I developed a dependence on sleeping pills (which weren't prescribed because I never kept up with therapy). I started wearing a tight rubber band around my wrist that would sting when I snapped it and I started jabbing pens into my hand.
However, when I realised I had gotten so used to the pills that I often overdosed, I backed up and got back to therapy in full form.
I ended a relationship that was only emptying me from within. It wasn't toxic, it wasn't dramatic, it just emptied me.
I stopped myself from believing people when my gut tells me they're not who seem to be.
The most positive thing for me at that point was to realise the importance of consistent counselling. Even more important was the courage and kindness I decided to show myself by consciously keeping out anything or anyone that messes with my frequency.
Even though I'm still battling the dependence, my self-harming tendencies have reduced a lot because I found a therapist who can help me focus on why I don't deserve what I do to myself and understand that I am brave enough to acknowledge what is wrong and deal with it "beautifully" (her words, not mine!). # Your go-to self care activity?
It's a breathing exercise for Anxiety that my therapist taught me. Breathe in for six counts, hold for seven, let it out in eight counts. Works like magic!
Other than that, I've taken up dancing as a daily activity, and I declutter my room with loud music. Best mood! :)
#GreaterThan65 #MentalHealth #MentalHealthAwareness #MentalHealthAdvocate #MentalHealthWarrior #Depression #Anxiety #SelfCare - 1 month ago